Tuesday, June 22, 2010

Growing Up (unedited)

I used to be funner, lighter, less dark. I used to think about different things. I used to read. And write.

It's probably just a growing up thing. But it's weird. It's weird to think about graduating in two years, and then comes the rest of my life, just like that. I'll be grown up. No more having other people help me or be responsible for me. "When I grow up" is just around the corner.

I don't even know how I'm supposed to do this.
I don't know how to do stuff.
And I like being a kid.

Why is this so hard?



Sam said...

-ouch- That hit a little close to home, lol.
If it makes you feel better, you aren't the only one. I used to not take everything so seriously. Looking at colleges used to be fun and not scary. My parents have never seemed so amazing and aggravating at the same time.
I don't know what's coming. I don't know if I'll succeed at anything. I can kick butt academically and write a poem, but what about the rest of everything?
It's scary.
But at least I'm not the only kid that feels that way.

Gwyn said...

One thing that helped me out A LOT was reading the Rebelution book "Do Hard Things" by Alex & Brett Harris. It makes you a more confident, more prepared person. It lets you know you're not the only one left in the lurch, and it teaches you what your teen years should be used for: preparing for a successful adult-hood, one little step at a time.
It helped me, maybe it will help you :)

♥Bleah♥Briann♥ said...

yeah... trust me, I know. Sometimes it feels just to close, to soon. I wonder if I'll know how to live. If I'll succeed or if I'll fall flat on my face. If I'll be a failure. I Don't know. Life is so much simplier when these things are farther away, we enjoy things more. But when push comes to shouve we still have to years. The way I see it... don't rush it. Give it to God, pray for God to give you wisdom and guidance and enjoy the bliss and ignorance we have for the next two years. The deniability facor if you will. We'll have plenty of time to grow up, and I don't think the world... or God for that matter expects any more or less of us. We'll still only be 19 or 20 and I don't think anyone expects us to be the president by then anyways. Give it to God... yeah. Just give it to God.

With Love and Blessings,
Bleah Briann

findingMuse. said...

I'm only thirteen, and I think most thirteen-year olds want to hurry up and become adults. Drive that car, drink that beer. Do all those sorts of things. But really... It scares me more than anything. I want to stay awaaaaay from those parts of adulthood.

I see myself having to mature a little more with each event of my life, and it's definitely intimidating, I don't know if I'll be able to do it either.

But I guess all I can do is push on like a locomotive. It's about all I know how to do, sometimes it feels.

Sophie said...

..well. that's exactly what i've been thinking about for the past ten months. i'm a junior and going to be a senior in August. so i'm basically a senior. i still don't know what i want to be or what to study. i don't even know what college i'm going to. my parents expect scholarships, i have some doubts. my parents want me to be a nurse, i feel like i'm not smart enough for that.
Trust me, i am in no hurry to "grow-up". but i will if i have to. that's how i've always been. i won't do anything unless i have no choice BUT to do it.
Don't think of it as hard. Think of it as another milestone in this thing we call "life".