I Was Stumbling Today, And...

...look what I found! Click on it for a bigger version.

{Stumble.com}

~Kendra

~Sad Songs~

When I was little, I hated sad songs.

And when I say "hate," I mean "LEGIT. HATRED." If I heard the first note of "Christmas Shoes" on the radio, it was off before the sound had time to register with anyone else. Just about any country sound was taboo, and the general category of Sad Love Songs was banned from my presence.

It's not that I was a controlling little devil (although maybe I was), I just couldn't deal with sad songs. My heart would start to get smaller and tighter and my throat would squeeze and I'd feel warm wetness in the back of my eyes and an uncontrollable need to curl up and die would overtake me.

I heard "Christmas Shoes" ONCE and spent that entire Christmas alternately crying in my room because I thought my mother was going to die. True story.

Now, I love sad songs.

I buy them on iTunes, search them out on my iPod, have playlists for them, put them on in the car. My sister hates me for it, but I figure she'll come around eventually like I did.

Instead of sad songs ruining my day (or possibly my ENTIRE CHRISTMAS SEASON) the way they used to, they fill my soul. Isn't that weird way to say it? But it's true. Something inside me swells with emotion until I think I might burst. The truth and tragedy resonate with me. Sad songs inspire me to write with passion; they pull my emotions together into a breathtaking bundle. They make me feel something beautiful.

I'm not sure when the change happened, or why. I've always been a very emotional person. I don't mean that I cry a lot or am a drama queen. I actually don't cry very often and I pride myself on dry humor.

I mean that when I'm happy, the whole world is beautiful and alive and nothing can stop me. When I'm sad, everything I am dips into a well of despair filled to the top with all the misfortune and cruelty in the world. When I'm angry, everything is tinged in red and channels of passion course through my veins, giving me strength to make a change.

I feel everything strongly. No matter what the emotion is, I am all over it. Full-force, completely, nothing halfway about it.

I think when I was little, I was afraid of my emotions. I knew how powerful my sadness was, so I ran from it, blocked it out, avoided it at all cost. Somewhere along the line, I began to realize how beautiful emotions are. The stronger they are, the more potential for beauty, for inspiration. Not to say that emotions should control you--you must be sure that YOU are in control of THEM--but that you shouldn't fear them.

You miss 100% of the shots you never take. No pain, no gain. The bigger the risk, the bigger the success. You can never win unless you're willing to try.

If you run from your feelings, you'll never know just how beautiful they can be.
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[Due to miscounting on my part, I'm going to have to do more than 30 Things a day for the next three days, because I want to end on Thanksgiving :)]

Questions (all originals, btw XD):
361. When witnesses are asked if they will tell the whole truth in court, what happens if they say no?
362. How do British schools teach about the Revolutionary War?
363. Do Mexicans think about Spain the way Americans think about England?
364. Why do only guys go bald?
365. How important does a person have to be before they're "assassinated" and not just "murdered"?
366. How were cuss words invented?
366. Do other countries celebrate Thanksgiving?
368. Why is it now more of a girl thing to have long hair? I mean, originally, guys AND girls did.
369. What is the big deal with those nerdy glasses this days?
370. Why is it that when I try to think of them, all the awesome questions I have go away?

RANDOM FACTS
371. Saturday mail delivery in Canada was eliminated by Canada Post on February 1, 1969!
372. In Tokyo, a bicycle is faster than a car for most trips of less than 50 minutes!
373. There are 18 different animal shapes in the Animal Crackers cookie zoo!
374. Should there be a crash, Prince Charles and Prince William never travel on the same airplane as a precaution!
375. Your body is creating and killing 15 million red blood cells per second!
376. The king of hearts is the only king without a moustache on a standard playing card!
377. There are no clocks in Las Vegas gambling casinos!
378. There is one slot machine in Las Vegas for every eight inhabitants!
379. Every day 20 banks are robbed. The average take is $2,500!
380. The most popular first name in the world is Muhammad!


Answer to the "How Well Do You Know Me" Quiz:
381. B
382. A
383. D
384. A
385. A
386. C
387. D
388. A
389. B
390. There were only 9 questions... :3

Most Visited Sites on My Computer
391. Yahoo!
392. Gmail
393. Blogger
394. Facebook
395. Google
396. Youtube
397. Wikipedia
398. Stumble
399. Fandango
400. Twitter

~KeNdRa

Computer Free Week

I'm back. No computer for a whole week was hard, but kind of nice. I've lost a lot of the desire to be on here a lot. So I probably won't be on a lot anymore. But I thought I'd let you see what I did this week XD At least when I had a camera around.

Captions on the bottom.

I didn't straighten my hair one day. I didn't hate myself with curly hair.
I "invented" a new kind of pigtail. And the flash on my camera turned me into an albino -_-
Ellie came over :D We were sitting around being ourselves, talking about weird things and writing books. Then we were like, "When girls get together like this they always take a ton of pictures of themselves. And make faces. And then put them on Facebook. It's so preppy and annoying...............hehe, let's do that."
Eyebrows.
We tried to take a picture of us and the Jonas Brothers. It didn't really work out.
Good picture.
The endless amusement reflections create.
Ellie and Licky.
Guess which one is me?
My arm.
Sistahs.
I got to babysit on Friday.
Ryan.
Maddie. This cracks me up every time.
Flexible little thing.
Lizzy. We hung out at the lake some.
A huge thunderstorm came up on Sunday. This is from my front porch. The Logan River XD
Daniel was at our house.
And so was Gracie.
And Stacey.
And Meredith :)

A week without the computer was just what I needed :D

A Happy Ending, But...

Well. Today was preeeetty awful.

#1: Woke up to an angry mother.
#2: Got my cell phone taken away.
#3: Did not get enough school done.
#4: My mom's students came this afternoon, which translates to no computer use and no desk chair in my room -_-
#5: A girl stepped on my toe at dance. In a tap shoe. It kills -_-

And then the worst:

#7: My ring broke. The one I replaced my mood ring with. The one that was my favorite.

:-/ >.< :( :'(

I should have taken if off before dance. But being the incredibly intelligent individual I am, I did not. So now it's busted. Into three pieces. I only found two.

Only now today doesn't suck AS much anymore because SOMEONE just made me laugh my head off and smile and grin, so...whatcha gonna do? Did today suck, or is all well that end's well?

I'm going with a happy ending fixes everything.

At least until I remember my ring is busted and my mood ring is somewhere at Great Wolf Lodge and so my ring finger feels all naked and sobbing and my toe--

Never mind. All's well that ends well XD

~Kendra

50 Words and 15 Days

Thanks for following shelbyevelyn!

Gosh, I gained another follower and lost another. Have I gotten really boring lately? :( Oh well. I had 77 followers for about an hour, so yay ;)

I also noticed that some of the blogs I've been following have disappeared off my blog list. Very suspicious. If there was any doubt about my computer hating me, it has been removed. I shall spend another part of the afternoon searching for the blogs I'm supposed to be following. *sighgrumble*

Anyway, on to 50 Word Friday!

It might be funny.
It might be wise.
A comment about living,
Or someone’s demise.

It might be scary.
Or even something gross.
Maybe something personal
Or something quite morose.

My posts are typically long;
Your eyes soon float away.
So once a week for you,
There’s 50 WORD FRIDAY!

There are only fifteen days until Christmas, y'all! WOOT! So, 15 Words That Remind Me of Christmas!

1. Santa
2. Holly
3. Tinsel
4. Stockings
5. Treats
6. Chestnuts
7. Jingle
8. Manger
9. Bethlehem
10. Presents
11. Pageants
12. Joy
13. Nutcrackers
14. Red-'n'-green
15. Candy canes

MERRY FIFTEEN-DAYS-UNTIL-CHRISTMAS!

Also:
I'm going to an ice skating party tonight!
I'm coming down with a cold *grumble*

EDIT: Ohhhhhhhhh! *revelation* The followers I'm losing are the same as the blogs my computer ditched! Yikes, I've got to go to my ex-followers blogs and explain what happened!

Episode II of Fortuna Kendrae (Kendra's Luck)

So, my mom got home a couple of weeks ago from her trip to Florida. She travels sometimes because of her position in Classical Conversations. Well, she had a lot of work that had accumulated over her week-long trip. The next day, she wanted to get right down to business.

That would have been much easier if her computer would turn on.

She pressed the "on" button of her laptop, and the cheerful Windows screen appeared along with the spinning mouse-arrow that's computer code for "Please-Hold-Oh-Impatient-One-Or-I-Will-Freeze-Up-For-Twenty-Minutes". Her computer's fairly new and fast, so that screen usually lasts all of seven seconds anyway. Not the case this time.

That cheerful Windows screen and Hold-On arrow continued to stare at her for minutes on end. Needless to say, ten minutes later, the screen was no longer cheerful, and neither was my mother.

She called in my dad, the family's Computer Superman (although he's not *especially* tech-savvy). I'm not really sure what they thought was wrong, but they tried all morning to get it to fix itself.

That afternoon, they moved on to looking for the computer's programming disk or something. I honestly have no idea. I think my dad explained to me why they were looking for it, but I can't remember. Maybe you geeks--I mean, computer lovers (XD just kidding) will know what the heck I'm talking about.

My dad looked ALL OVER THE HOUSE for that disk. We're a really organized family, so whenever we can't find something, it's a big deal. Major tension. My dad looked all in his and my mom's office, all upstairs, in the cabinets behind my Mom's Chair, in the unfinished part of the basement (a VERY large area), these drawers under this thing ('cause you totally know what I'm talking about there), EVERYWHERE. That stupid disk couldn't be found.

So they moved on to another solution. Don't remember what it was, but it was some kind of installment thing or something that took forEVER. It took about another whole day (so we're been trying to fix this stupid machine for two days), and the stupid thing still didn't work after that.

This lady from our church who's apparently computer-talented looked over the problem and didn't know what to do. So we called in our last resort:

COMPUTER GUY EXTRAORDINAIRE! From church. Very nice guy, very good with computers. He agreed to come the next day. So, it's now been THREE days of Tech Hell.

I wandered into my mom's office that night. She was leaning on her desk, just looking so depressed. I felt so bad for her. I went over and massaged her back a little. I sat down at her desk and glared at the stupid machine who was wreaking havoc on our family dynamic. The Windows screen was up and the arrow was spinning obliviously. Evil little creature.

Then I got this Feeling.

I sometimes get this Feeling. It's really hard to describe. It's like this happy, curious, confident, contented feeling. Like everything's all good, let me just try one thing...I usually get this feeling right before I do something weird. Good weird. Really unexpectedly-good-weird.

I cocked my head at my mom's computer, arrow still spinning. I got the Feeling and poked Ctrl + Alt + Delete.

Nothing happened. I honestly didn't expect it to. My subconscious seemed to only have tried that for kicks. All the sudden I pressed F5 (refresh).

The Windows screened cleared immediately, revealing Momma's account.

I looked up at her innocently: "I think I fixed your computer, Momma."

She looked. Eyes bugged. Jaw dropped. Whoa.

F5. Who woulda thought? Not Momma. Not Daddy. Not Computer Lady. Not Techie Man.

Not even me. I just did it. Didn't mean to; didn't think about it.

The computer is still running smoothly. Ta-da. Thank you, thank you very much.

And this has been another episode of...

FORTUNA KENDRAE!


P.S. Going to see "A Christmas Carol" in 3D tonight! I'll let you know if it sucks or not XD

Fact or Fiction and the Timeline from Satan

Fact or Fiction:

The Kentucky Fried Chicken chain changed their name to KFC to eliminate the word "fried" from its title.

As usual, comment or email me your answer, and NO GOOGLING :)
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Well, today was just lovely.

NOT.

School was going moderately fine until about 2:45 when I started to work on my hateful timeline for Art History. To keep it short, I'll just explain it as the most horrendously tedious, mind-numbingly frustrating, stress-inducing school activity ever conceived by man (or in this case, woman :P).

AND it has to be done on the computer, which triples the liklihood of getting a monsterous headache (I did).

I had three pages worth of dates to enter into this timeline. I have to copy and paste the timeline onto a word document, change all the dates on the line to suit what I need it to, copy and past the little labels and stick them to the right date.

To give you an idea of how long it takes to do this, I'll tell you that it took me 53 minutes to enter in half a page's worth of dates.

I saved the document and decided I'd finish later.

That wasn't good enough for my mother, however, she said I had to finish the other two and a half pages NOW, and she wanted to see what I had done so far (I don't think she believed me that I had worked on it at all :( ).

Grumbling to myself, I pulled up the hateful timeline.

Er, tried to.

The thing is, it wasn't there.

None of it. At all. Nothing. Nowhere.

My timeline had somehow gotten deleted, or at any rate, not saved even though I specifically clicked SAVE a million times!

SO, I had to start ALL OVER and do the WHOLE THING which took me a grand total of THREE HOURS of insanely tedious, mind-numblingly frustrating, stressful WORK.

I almost cried. But I didn't.

So, that was my day.

How was yours? >:E

No play practice tonight :'( I'm sad about that. I really, really, REALLY like it. I thought at first it was going to just stress me out, but it actually is KEEPING me from being stressed. It's a great way to relax and have fun after a horrible day. So, I really wish I had it tonight :(

As for writing...*sigh* I really need to get with it, I know. I don't know what's wrong with me, but then again I never do.

So, blah. Vote on the poll. Answer the Fact or Fiction question. Participate in Followers Say. Ask me a question for Question Day. Get someone to become my 50th follower.

*sigh*

I'm sorry. Today has just turned out to be a heck of a let down. Thanks for cheering me up, though, Cavender :)


P.S. Check out my new bookshelf! It's on the sidebar thing right after the blog archive.

Vets, Colds, and Computers

First things first: followers are the greatest! I only wish my retarded computer would load the page so I could see who my fortieth follower WAS. *growls* I can't quite remember their name. It's like just4god or something...*moan* I'm sorry I can't properly recognize you! If the page will load for anyone else, please tell me who follower number 40 is, will you? Thanks, and thanks just4god or whatever for following! Yay! 40 followers! I never thought I'd see the day.

Second things second: Word Day! And my word is: desconsolado.

First person to explain that to me gets an award. We all know it will be Cavender, but let's wait and see for sure.

Third things third: Today was okay. Mostly. I finished the Da Vinci Code, which was *very* good, took my dog to the vet, ran out of tissues for my cold, had a rough afternoon, ate a great dinner, watched Wizards of Waverly Place with the family, ate a slice of pizza, pretzels, and a Go-Gurt, then here I am. And my chin is itching...hopefully it isn't poison ivy.

So, basically, I have a cold, my dog has a double ear infection, I'm too full, and I thought about Him a lot today.

Still had a good day. My chin itches.

Last night at like midnight, I wrote like a page and a half of "Mirror". It's okay. It's a little more formal than the rest of the book, though. Weird. My writing style kind of tends to mimic whatever I'm reading at the moment, and The Da Vinci Code is written with slightly bigger-than-usual words, so I guess that's rubbing off on me.

We finally got a new router for the computer! Yay! It was going great until like...just now. Great. It's SLOWER THAN MOLASES again. We have such rotten computer luck.

Oh, I also have a new gadget, the page-hit counter! I started it at 1000, because I figure in the year I've had this blog, surely it must have been visited that many times. I was going to start at 100 instead, but I accidentally clicked "finish" or whatever before I had the chance.

Gracias to everyone who liked my eye yesterday, lol! Lizzy's amazing with cameras.

I hate how boring I am today. I'm sorry.

My Shallow Mind

Well, I got on the computer for like an hour and a half this morning, then spent the rest of it packing and taking a shower. I haven't had lunch yet. I'm just now getting hungry...

I had something really awesome to say, and I forgot it. Dang it.

Anyway, today is QUOTE DAY! I've missed these a lot lately. Okay. Quote:

"You can't cross a sea by merely staring into the water." - Rabindranath Tagore

Very true. I think a lot of times, I just stare into the water. I'm sort of a hesitant kind of person. I have to come up with all the reasons why I SHOULDN'T do something, and then counter all of them. I have to make sure that I really want to do something, that it's the best idea, etc. Unfortunately, I miss out on a lot of perfectly good, fun stuff because of that. I almost didn't go to the mini-camp thing, but then I thought, "Kendra, you never do anything. Like, ever. You're turning into a boring wall-flower and you need to get a life." So, I decided to go :D

I made a quiz on Facebook about myself. It's really hard, because some of the answers are almost ties, lol!

Blogger is still being stupid.

Uhm...I really wish I could remember what I was going to say. It was worth writing about, I remember that much. *sigh* My mind is so shallow. It must be all the computer time.

Which reminds me, I have to get off. I'm down to like twenty minutes of computer time left, and I haven't even written anything.

Shocker.

Anyway, I'm going to go have lunch and then finish packing. Maybe I'll call Ellie B. Although, she's at her cousin's so maybe that would be rude...whatever. I'm getting off. Talk to ya later!

CARPE TUUS (is that singular or plural?) DIEM!

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EDIT: Ohh, I just remembered that "carpe" is imperative, so the "you" is implied. DUH. So, forget the "tuus" anyway. Sorry. Okay, I'm really getting off now.

Eyes and Brains

It's Picture Day! (Blogger is still being stupid. I can't add links or change the font.)

*gasp* Oh my gosh! I can't add a picture! When I try to, all that shows up is the link, not the actual picture! WHAT IS UP WITH THIS STUPID THING?? GOSH! Okay, if any of you more comptuer-savy people have any idea what's wrong (maybe I clicked something?), please let me know what to do to fix it. -_-

And the pictures are awesome, by the way. And I even had a little "speech" to go with them. *sigh* Okay, well, here's an idea. I'll just post the links and you can click on them. Not nearly as awesome and exciting, but whatever.

Link to picture one: http://www.imagecows.com/uploads/7c83-collectionofeyespicsppr3.jpg

Link to picture two: http://i200.photobucket.com/albums/aa94/patty123654/eyes.jpg

"Speech":

I’ve always been fascinated by eyes. It’s the first thing I notice about people, and it’s the thing I always seem to stare at. Even in restaurants and stores, I find myself looking at peoples’ eyes. You can tell a lot from someone’s eyes. As Shakespeare said, “Eyes are the windows to the soul.”

I think that’s very true. Emotion comes through your eyes. Even if you’re trying to hide your true feelings, I think some of what you’re really thinking comes through your eyes. It’s impossible (or at least nearly so) to prevent this.

Besides being “windows to the soul,” eyes are really beautiful. I love peoples’ eyes. I’m sure a lot of it is just me, but I think everyone has a certain degree of fascination with eyes. For one thing, although there are supposed to be only four main colors—blue, green, brown, and hazel—no two pairs of eyes are alike. Even if they are almost the same color, the shape of the eyes or something else is different.

As I said, eyes are the first thing I notice about people. If I can’t seen someone’s eyes when I’m talking to them or sitting next to them (like in class), it irritates me for some reason. It’s not like I get angry or something, I just feel the need to try to get a glimpse of the person’s eyes.

Some people I know have extremely intense eyes. (I’ve been told that mine are as well, I don’t really think so. It’s possible that your own eyes never seem intense to you.) I’m big on eye contact, but some people I know have such intense eyes that it’s hard for me to continue looking at them for any amount of time. I seem to almost get “lost” in their eyes. When I’m talking to someone like that, I sometimes realize that I haven’t been listening to them. I’ve just been studying their eyes.

It’s completely possible that I’m just a freak and I need to get a hold of myself, but I think I’m just unusually fascinated. Does anyone else feel this way? It seems to me that the eyes are the most important part of the body, and everyone has a certain degree of interest in them. Or at least I think everyone should. Eyes tell a lot about people. Pay attention. Who knows what you might notice?

-end of weird and boring speech-

I'm leaving for mini-camp in two days! Yay! As soon as my dad gets home from doing something (forgot what, lol), we're going to Wal-Mark to get some stuff like more sunscreen and a couple of other things.

I ate some of these weird cookies a couple of hours ago, and now I feel all weird. Ugh. I am not going to eat those again. I hope I don't puke or something.

Wow, sorry; that was definitely too much information, wasn't it? *shakes head at self*

The weird mood is back. Or maybe it's the cookies... XD

Anyway, I've been feeling...bored lately. Not the usual I-don't-know-what-to-do bored. More like, I feel like I don't have a life anymore. Or a brain, actually. I spend entirely too much time on the computer, and my creativity and general intelligence is suffering, I think. (Don't laugh; I'm serious *giggle* No; really.)

I feel like my whole life is on the computer/internet, and that isn't healthy. I need to be outside more, talk on the phone more, write more. I was gonna say "read more", too, but I actually read just as much as ever (maybe more), so never mind that. (FYI, I think "never mind" should be one word. It looks better, and it just seems like it should be one word. Don't you think?)

Anyway, back to my rant about losing my brain (lols).

I have to stop being on the computer so much. It's just not healthy for my body or my mind. I'm thinking of setting myself limits. Like two hours a day or something. Hmm. And maybe I should make schedules for other things, too. Like, being outside time, TV time, reading time, writing time, etc.

I think I should do that. I'll probably hate it, but I think it'll be good for me. The only question is, do I have the self-discipline to stick to this?

Maybe.

Maybe not.

We'll see.

For now, I'm getting off, and I promise myself to only get on one more time (maybe two??) after this.

Carpe diem. NOT on the computer.

Best Book and Being Better

>:( >:( >:( >:( >:( >:(

That's how I feel right now. My computer is being unbelievably retarded. I've been trying to load the same page since--are you ready for this?--LAST NIGHT. I've been trying to get to the same thing since LAST NIGHT! I started trying at four in the afternoon, tried until six, ate dinner, came back, tried again until ten-thirty. Then I got up this morning, did math, then came back and tried for FOUR MORE HOURS. IT WON'T FREAKIN' LOAD!!!!!! I'm so mad I can't even BEGIN to explain how annoying this is!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

Okay. Sorry. I actually have some really happy stuff to tell you! I FINISHED THE FINAL FARSALA BOOK LAST NIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AND IT WAS SO AMAZING!!!!!!!!! Oh my gosh! It was soooooo good! I actually cried because it was over. Yeah, I actually did that. But I was so sad that the books are over! I love the characters! They feel like friends. I thought I felt like that about other books, but this time the feeling of closeness with the characters is unbelievable. I feel like I know them, and now they've left. Their story is over, and I'll never know what happens after this. I love them!! *sigh*

Best books I've ever, ever read. Sorry, Inkheart, Eragon, Twilight, the Mortal Instruments trilogy, the Farsala trilogy surpasses all of you. Sure some things were sad, and some things were unexpected, but...wow. Just wow. Hilari Bell has to be one of the most brilliant writers ever. Seriously. I'm speechless. Amazing books, amazing ending, amazing characters, *sob* I'm gonna miss them so much! *soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooob*

*wipes eyes* 'Kay. I'm done.

Oh. Guess what? That page just loaded. *blinks* Well...yay.

Aaaaaaand my week is back to being amazing :)

Tonight I get to play with the little kids! I'm so excited! Playing with them always reminds me of...better times. Times when I was the little kid and was being played with. Good times. I'm glad to be able to help these little kids have memories like that of their own.

It's sunny today! My garden is lookin' good. The seeds haven't sprouted yet, but the tomatoes and pepper plants look happy. They're still pretty small, but they look healthy so far. I've planted squash, zucchini, tomatoes, and peppers. Red peppers, I think. Lol, I can't remember for sure...but I'm pretty sure they're red.

Oh, whoops! Today is quote day! Alrighty :D Here's the quote of the week:

"That doesn't matter," said Jiaan. "What matters is that we have to be better than the Hrum. We have to be. Because if we're not, then it's all been for nothing. All the fighting, all the deaths. For nothing, unless we're better than they are. ...It's not about my father. It's not even about the Hrum. This is about our honor. We have to be better than they are, or it doesn't even matter whether we win or not."

That's a quote from, you guessed it, a book in the Farsala trilogy. I tried to pick a meaningful passage that wouldn't spoil anything in case any of you want to read the books (I HIGHLY recommend them).

Isn't that quote so true? If you're fighting for something, you have to want to be better than the people you're fighting. If you want to be in the popular crowd, you ought to want to bring about good changes, too. Same if you want to be the president. You can't run with the intention of being a worse president than the one before you. You have to be better. It's not about the old president. It's about you. It's about you being better.

*shrugs* I don't know. It just like that passage. And when you read it in context, it's even better.

:)

Carpe diem! And remember, be better :)

An Enchanted Forest and A Happy Week!

Haha, I know it's a little girly, but I thought this picture was cool. I don't really know why, it's just like the classic enchanted forest. I think it's really well done, too.

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I know this is random, but want to show y'all this before I forget. It's sooooo funny!! It's called Bible in a Minute. Here's the link:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ar_k8JjVWQA

Anyway, today I went bathing suit shopping. I already have a bathing suit, but since we live closer to the lake, my mom figured we'd be going swimming more often that we do normally. *sigh* Bathing suit shopping is usually hard for me. Not because I'm overweight (I'm actually not too bad), but because I feel so...exposed in most of them, lol! It's hard to find one that I feel comfortable wearing, because, sorry, but I don't just lay on the beach and watch everyone else have fun. I like to actually DO stuff without worrying that my top is gonna fall off! I found one that's cute and I feel okay in. It's a little low, but I figure I can get used to it. Let's hope.

Haven't written Creepy in a couple of days. I'll force myself today.

OHHHHHHHHHHH guess what?? I got the third book in the Mortal Instruments Trilogy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Books are the only thing that get that many exclamation points. I'm really excited! So is Ellie B. Or at least she will be when she gets the text I sent her, lol! We both love the books now. I let her borrow the first one when she came over a couple of Fridays ago (remember?), and she loved it, too. YAY! Now I'm reading two books at once again. *sigh* The final Farsala book (which is still good), and the City of Glass.

Tomorrow night is band practice and I'll get to play with the little kids (Abby and Jarrod, and Ryan and Maddie)!! Yay again! This week is just going fabulously so far. And to end it, I'll be babysitting Maddie and Ryan, and then going to a sleepover at Ellie's! Seriously, this is like the best week EVER. YAY YAY YAY YAY! Sorry to be so ridiculously happy, lol :)

Okay, here's one bad thing: I've been trying to load the same stupid page for--NOT EXAGGERATING--almost fifteen minutes. What is WRONG with this stupid computer? GOSH! Windows Vista sucks. Seriously. No one buy it. It's a waste of money, and time.

Oh, and I have a question for all the guys out there: You know that you're going to a magical world, what do you bring with you? You also know that you're going straight into the hands of the evil and extremely powerful rulers of that land. Besides, like, a gun, what would you bring? Think practical, too. Paige is bring stuff like ibuprofen and ChapStick and stuff like that, but I don't know what Darren would bring. Guys, help! :) Thanks!

Good News, Bad News

Good news: finally have "Colors of the Wind" out of my head.
Bad news: now I have a Hilary Duff song stuck in my head and she seriously irritates me.
Good news: next to no driver's ed work this week.
Bad news: still stuck-ish in Creepy.
Good news: It's supposed to snow tonight.
Bad news: I highly doubt it will.

Other than that, not much has been going on. Creepy is really bugging me though. I can't get going. I honestly feel like the last...46 pages are crap. I lost my touch, the plot isn't tight, it's boring, I hate it, AHHH! No idea what to do. I have an ending (sort of...maybe...), but that isn't even any consolation.

I really am sorry that I'm being so grumpy and gloomy lately. But I have to complain somewhere. I haven't been writing in my journal lately, so I need to say it somewhere:

1. I lost $11.99 because SOMEONE, who shall remain nameless, turned off the computer while I was downloading an album off iTunes. (If you're reading this, SOMEONE, I'm not mad. I'm just saying all the stuff that's gone wrong this week.)
2. I've been cold for over 48 hours straight. Or at least I was. I'm okay now.
3. Creepy sucks.
4. I have a stupid Hilary Duff song in my head and it WON'T GO AWAY. I liked "Colors of the Wind" better than this!!
5. Haven't started my huge philosophy project yet, and I don't want to do the idea I chose but I'm stuck with it now and if it bombs it's going to be really embarrassing because of the type of project.
6. Something that I don't feel like telling the whole world.
7. My computer is being a total piece of freaking CRAP lately. Half the time the internet won't load AT ALL, and the other half it won't load fast AT ALL.
8. Writer's block.
9. Journal block.
10. Haven't heard from Shur'tugal people and it's really starting to annoy me.

Okay, sorry. Just venting. You don't have to say you're sorry for me if you don't want to. I know I've been moping a lot lately and y'all's suggestions really helped me :) Thanks, y'all! You rock! I promise I'll get cheerier soon (ish...). Especially after we move.

OHHHHHHH!! I didn't tell you the best news I don't think! We get to move this weekend! We had thought it might be months, but we'll move this weekend! Yay!! :) :) :) :) :)

Oh! And happy March, everyone! :)