Praises and Prayers

Praise: I got my permit! YESSS :) It was a little more complicated and irritating than we thought (we ended up not having all the paperwork, etc.), so I just got it yesterday. I missed 2 questions XD Oh well. I drove to class today, which was fun, even though it was kind of nerve-wracking.

Prayers: I know 10 people who are sick. There is a horrible thing going around. Stuffy nose, runny nose, sore throat, sneezing, coughing, chest pain, and a high fever in my sister's case. See, Lizzy is an amazing sport. She plows through life and gives 100% no matter what. She has to be feeling like death warmed over to show it, and, well, she's showing it.

I haven't seen her like this in years. At least. It makes me want to take all the sickness and just go through it myself, and I mean that. (Normally I'm a selfish little snitch, so it's different this time, lol...XD) My mom is even thinking about taking her to the doctor, something she hardly ever does.

Anyway, I don't want to sound annoying, because I know there are WAY worse things than a bad cold/virus thing, but any prayers for my sister (and all the other sick people) would be wonderful.

~Kendra

Busy!

This has been a busy week! Monday-Wednesday, I helped with 6-8-year-old day camps at practicums. Practicums are basically three day day conferences for people who do my kind of homeschooling. The moms (or dads) can drop their kids off at the appropriate camp while they go get training and listen to speakers. Handling 50 little kids is exhausting and challenging, but I LOVE it. Kids are one of my favorite things in the world.

Yesterday, I slept in. I hadn't been able to sleep past 6 o'clock in six days! I sure made up for it yesterday. I slept about 12 hours and got woken up at 11:40 (thanks, Daddy XD). The rest of the day was pretty chill, and I went to Cavender and Matt's band concert that night. I'm really not a person to give compliments and I'm not easily impressed, but I will tell you something:

Cavender is a beast on the trumpet. Just saying.

Today, I woke up from an extremely awesome dream, but unfortunately have a cold :( Not enough sleep and not enough vitamin C, I guess. I'm taking Zicam and drinking lots of water because guess what happens tomorrow?

My first "King and I" practice! 5 hours of nonstop Siamese dancing! That will really be something! Never in my whole life have I danced alone, so this will be a very new and challenging experience. I hope I don't mess up! The play is in just over a month. Think I can master a 16-minute foreign ballet in that time? Honestly...

I think so :)

Here's to staying positive and having a great summer! Hope you all are doing great. Carpe diem!

~Kendra

Day Five On This Alien Cloud of Joy

It's not like I don't feel the sad/crappy/annoying/suckish things that happen, it's just like they roll off because I have better reasons to be happy.

School is going fine. Nothing to report there.

Writing is nonexistent. But I'll get inspired sooner or later.

Family is a'ight, which is basically as good as it gets XD

Sickness is getting better. Now my throat just hurts, but I think it's from coughing. I got sick of being sick yesterday and decided I'd be done with it today. So far so good. I've scheduled myself to be 150% back to normal by Saturday at the latest, lol :D

Guess what happened Monday? ELLIE (bff :D) TURNED SWEET SIXTEEN!!!!!!! WooT! :D

Music: I'm swimming in glorious iTunes cash from my birthday :D And I want more music. But I'm being really picky and I can't find anything I want. I dunno. Any suggestions? In general, I have really eclectic taste in music. However, I don't do country, Disney stars trying to sound sexy, or praise-and-worship type stuff (like, I don't really enjoy Michael W. Smith, lol). So...lol, if you're dying to help me out, I need music XD

Other awesomeness: Cavender is coming to church on Sunday :) And then he's coming to my house, then to a friend's birthday party with me. Awesome.

That's all. kBai.

~Kendra

Day Four!

I'm really confused. I'm not an excessively moody person, but I never stay this happy for so long at a time, especially not when cruddy stuff happens. And yet, here I am. This is my...*counts*...fourth day of being really happy. But I guess if you're going to get stuck on one mood, might as well be happy, right? :D

I'm sick. I have a cough, and that achy feeling that makes your skin hurt -_-

Hmm...I'm not going to dance tonight. *sigh* With a cough, I think jumping around in a hot room would pretty much suck :( This is my second week in a row missing it, though. Ugh, I hate missing dance. It makes my feet go crazy at inopportune moments XD

If you have a Facebook, you should become a fan of this little guy: http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=1199124401#!/pages/Jaxon-Jarman/301478489274?ref=nf He's basically the best little thing since sliced bread.

Uhm...aaaaaand that's all for now folks :) I'm not thinking particularly deep thoughts with my head all fuzzy >.< In a few days I should be back to the Kendra you know and love (or hate XD).

~Kendra

Return of the Schedule?

So, first: what do you think of the winter look? I really like it, but it sort of seems...dark almost. Kind of like the White Witch's castle or something, you know? Hmm.

Well, school sort of started back today. Not full speed by any stretch of the imagination. All I had to do was a little biology left over from break and repack my backpack for this semester. Tomorrow is when the real tortur--er, fun begins.

*sigh* I'm not sure when I started to dislike school so much. I used to sort of like it. I think I started to hate it when I started having to try really hard ;P Everything used to be really easy, now I have to really think. Darn, right?

It is official, though:

Kendra has a kold :(

But, seriously, it's not that bad. I hate feeling slow and stuffy, but it's not that bad. I slept a lot better last night than I did Saturday night. Saturday night was like my own personal...heck ;P FREEZING COLD!!!!! Last night, I wore my awesome new pajamas that Matt and Katie gave me, and added two extra blankets to my usual three :D I had really weird dreams though. Not even cool ones like usual, just kind of stupid :-/ Oh well.

With school starting back, I think I may need to get up a schedule again. What do you guys think? It's nice to have something pre-thought-out ideas so that I have something to go on if my day has been totally BLECK, you know? Hmm.

Okay, here's a list of all the "days" I've done before. Which ones would you really like to see back? I'll probably put up a poll in a minute.

1. Name Day
2. Quote Day
3. Character Day
4. God Day
5. Carpe Noctem Day
6. Word Day
7. Advice Day
8. Question Day
9. Fact or Fiction Day
10. Award Day (will not be returning, just so ya know, LOL XD)
11. 50 Word Friday (will definitely be staying, just so ya know ;))
12. Memory Day (...? Did anyone else *completely* forget this one??)
13. Picture Day

Do you feel like this was as boring and useless a post as I do? ;P

~Kendra (Sorry, my signature is still messed up.)

Female Cows and New Pajamas

So. Today has been good and bad at the same time.

Bad:
- I slept horrible
- I've been cold all day
- I think I may really be getting sick :(

Good:
- Church was good (I loved all the songs we sang!)
- I got some great journaling done
- We had Christmas with Matt and Katie's family, WooT!

We went straight to their house after youth group (since all of us except Katie were already together). We got pizza :D Then presents.

Lizzy shops for Katie, I shop for Matt. It just works better that way :) Katie was thrilled with her presents (a soft blanket she'd been wanting and this awesome Bath & Body Works peppermint soap).

Matt was actually really glad about his kite and reaction ball, too! :O I was really glad and kinda relieved. I don't know if you remembered, but he showed me this car he wanted me to get him for Christmas, but when I went to get it, it turned out to be a slot car -.- So, I ended up having to get him a kite. He actually *loved* it!! He said he'd been *wanting* a kite, and Matt's not one to make up crud like that.

I got REALLY AWESOME, REALLY FUZZY PAJAMAS!!! YAY!!! I love y'all!!!

So, because I didn't really feel like much, I mostly sat and watched Matt play Modern Warfare 2. I usually like to watch that kind of stuff. Today, I was too fuzzy to really take it all in, so I just made do with pestering Matt with irritating questions:

"What makes that gun an uzi?"

"You do realize that a 'heifer' is actually a female cow, right?"

"How do you tell who's on your team?"

"Can you shoot holes in that water tower?"

His answers:

1. "It's the kind of gunnnnnnnn, Kendra."

Me: "I KNOW THAT. What MAKES IT AN UZI??"

Him: "It shoots faster than the other ones. But there are actually guns that look just like it that shoot faster."

...WHAT THE HECK.

2. *laughs* "No, I didn't know that..."

3. "There are big green letters above them. Jeez."

4. *ignored me*

So that was my day. Mostly good, kinda cruddy because I feel sick, though :( But, not bad. Also, the fact that school starts back tomorrow kinda puts a damper on things.

Oh well.

Tomorrow, look for "Things About Playing Video Games With Guys".

~Kendra

50 Words and 15 Days

Thanks for following shelbyevelyn!

Gosh, I gained another follower and lost another. Have I gotten really boring lately? :( Oh well. I had 77 followers for about an hour, so yay ;)

I also noticed that some of the blogs I've been following have disappeared off my blog list. Very suspicious. If there was any doubt about my computer hating me, it has been removed. I shall spend another part of the afternoon searching for the blogs I'm supposed to be following. *sighgrumble*

Anyway, on to 50 Word Friday!

It might be funny.
It might be wise.
A comment about living,
Or someone’s demise.

It might be scary.
Or even something gross.
Maybe something personal
Or something quite morose.

My posts are typically long;
Your eyes soon float away.
So once a week for you,
There’s 50 WORD FRIDAY!

There are only fifteen days until Christmas, y'all! WOOT! So, 15 Words That Remind Me of Christmas!

1. Santa
2. Holly
3. Tinsel
4. Stockings
5. Treats
6. Chestnuts
7. Jingle
8. Manger
9. Bethlehem
10. Presents
11. Pageants
12. Joy
13. Nutcrackers
14. Red-'n'-green
15. Candy canes

MERRY FIFTEEN-DAYS-UNTIL-CHRISTMAS!

Also:
I'm going to an ice skating party tonight!
I'm coming down with a cold *grumble*

EDIT: Ohhhhhhhhh! *revelation* The followers I'm losing are the same as the blogs my computer ditched! Yikes, I've got to go to my ex-followers blogs and explain what happened!

Missed: One Brain Half

God Day:

Er...Not now, y'all.
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Sorry. It has so been one of THOSE days. As much as I really have tried to put on a happy face, today did not go well for me at all, as much as I think I hid it.

I got up, thinking that the day was going to go differently, and when it didn't go how I thought, I was pretty disappointed.
I was hungry all during church.
I woke up just kind of stressed out because tomorrow is Monday, which is gonna be bleep.
The sermon just did not hit me at all today.
I didn't feel good this afternoon.
I had to go to youth group, which I feel is at the moment led by slightly hypocritical people. (They DEMAND us to be consistent and faithful with coming to youth, and yet they cancel on a dime because they "want to spend time with their kids" or something.)
I got so hot playing outside at youth, then I came inside, and it was the same temperature.
I was just feeling so stressed and not looking forward to tomorrow at all when the work load will hit me like a ton of freakin' bricks.
I really miss the other half of my brain that decided to be lame and quit doing Classical.
I really miss the other half of my brain. Really a lot. It is so not the same without it. So not.
Chores.
Suck.
Crap.
Crapp.
Crappp.
The end.

Sorry for being depressing.

~Kendra

P.S. Oh, and my nose hurts from getting hit in the face at the soccer game yesterday. All this stupid little crappiness just makes me wanna cry, you know? It's nothing big, just a lot of little things.

:'(

FIFTY FOLLOWERS!!

Hi!! Okay, so I REALLY don't have long because I'm supposed to be off the computer in five minutes :'( I do have some some things that HAVE to be said, rule or no rule.

Are you ready for this?

CARPE DIEM NOW HAS FIFTY (50) FOLLOWERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So, wow, right? Who would have ever guessed??

And who was follower number fifty? Ashley (Liebe)!! Thank you SO MUCH, Ashley!!! WOW!! I'm sorry, I know it's not Award Day, but this is just too huge. Ashley, take this award:

You rock :)
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Okay, so, wow, it's Thursday, Character Day, but I waited so long, and I just don't have time tonight :'( I'm so sorry! Today has been really full. I will most definitely post something for Character Day tomorrow along with Question Day. Thanks to Moon Shaw, Gracie, Justagirl4god and some else...? Oh, dear, I can't think of who it is :( Well, thanks to you guys for asking me some questions!
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Today:

...was good. Busy, but good. I had a horrible night's rest for some reason. I just kept feeling like I wasn't solidly asleep, and that made me worried that I wasn't getting enough sleep...I kept waking up stressed. *sigh* I know, how weird is that? But, remember, this is ME we're talking about. And everything seems worse and more end-of-the-world-ish at night. Have you noticed that?

This morning school went fine. I didn't get a couple of things done, darn, but Daniel (14), Emily (12) and Caleb (10) came over at two to swim in the lake! That's always fun. Daniel and I are a lot alike, so it's just really easy to hang out with him. The lake was really low because of the stupid drought, though, so the nasty bottom floor was exposed. *Eek face* GROSSGROSSGROSS! And the horse flies were plentiful. Daniel had fun whacking them with my noodle while I treaded water forEVER. Lols :)

Oh, and I found out today that he's not even 14 years old. He's still 13 :O Just highly mature. More mature than some 14-year-olds that I know as a matter of fact... :P

Play practice was good tonight, but I wasn't feeling good. I started feeling sick this late-afternoon, and I just felt like crap all during practice. Still, it was fun. We learned choreography to a song, which SHOULD have been quick and easy enough, but the teacher is so artsy and scattered. She drives me crazy. I like her fine as a person, but as a dance teacher, not so much. Her daughter (Mulan), who's usually nice, was having one of THOSE days apparently, so that mother-daughter chemistry was interesting to say the least.

Well, that was my day. I went through it really fast, and I didn't get in the Character Day thing (*sob*), but I'll do it tomorrow.

Tomorrow no one is coming over or anything. *whew* I love lots of people, company, and friends, but my school work is suffering. I really need a work-till-I'm-really-finished day.

Thanks for reading! Y'all just make my day with your comments and voting and stuff! Thanks for being there! Sorry I didn't go into too much detail about the Fiftieth Follower thing :-/ I wanted to do something really huge and special, but I'm already seven minutes past my get-off-the-computer time, so I have to go :( Talk to you later!

*mutters and moans*

I'm burning up. *moan* I haven't been able to cool off since lunch. We ate at a pizza place that was way hot, and I haven't cooled down since. *moaaaaan*

And now I also have a headache, and my throat feels funny. *hangs head sadly*

Sorry. I'm in kind of a pitiful mood. I'm going to try to suck it up and move on.

'Kay, so, it's God Day, and I have an idea, but I feel so pathetic, I wouldn't be able to write anything very well anyway.

What I've been doing lately: reading Maximum Ride: Angel Experiment. It was very good. Favorite character: Fang, the strong, silent type. Yay, Fang.

I'm also halfway watching the Hannah Montana "brother-a-thon" and wishing I were Miley Stuart.

OW! I just bashed my elbow on the counter!

*mutters evilly*

Okay, I'm leaving. I have no idea why I feel so crappy, but I'm going to just go get some juice or something and read the next book in the Maximum Ride series.

Sorry for being pathetic :(

Vets, Colds, and Computers

First things first: followers are the greatest! I only wish my retarded computer would load the page so I could see who my fortieth follower WAS. *growls* I can't quite remember their name. It's like just4god or something...*moan* I'm sorry I can't properly recognize you! If the page will load for anyone else, please tell me who follower number 40 is, will you? Thanks, and thanks just4god or whatever for following! Yay! 40 followers! I never thought I'd see the day.

Second things second: Word Day! And my word is: desconsolado.

First person to explain that to me gets an award. We all know it will be Cavender, but let's wait and see for sure.

Third things third: Today was okay. Mostly. I finished the Da Vinci Code, which was *very* good, took my dog to the vet, ran out of tissues for my cold, had a rough afternoon, ate a great dinner, watched Wizards of Waverly Place with the family, ate a slice of pizza, pretzels, and a Go-Gurt, then here I am. And my chin is itching...hopefully it isn't poison ivy.

So, basically, I have a cold, my dog has a double ear infection, I'm too full, and I thought about Him a lot today.

Still had a good day. My chin itches.

Last night at like midnight, I wrote like a page and a half of "Mirror". It's okay. It's a little more formal than the rest of the book, though. Weird. My writing style kind of tends to mimic whatever I'm reading at the moment, and The Da Vinci Code is written with slightly bigger-than-usual words, so I guess that's rubbing off on me.

We finally got a new router for the computer! Yay! It was going great until like...just now. Great. It's SLOWER THAN MOLASES again. We have such rotten computer luck.

Oh, I also have a new gadget, the page-hit counter! I started it at 1000, because I figure in the year I've had this blog, surely it must have been visited that many times. I was going to start at 100 instead, but I accidentally clicked "finish" or whatever before I had the chance.

Gracias to everyone who liked my eye yesterday, lol! Lizzy's amazing with cameras.

I hate how boring I am today. I'm sorry.

God Sightings

*sobs for joy* 38 FOLLOWERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Bekah, you rock! Thanks *so much*!!

I'm listening to "Leave Out All the Rest" by Linkin Park, so this post might be a little distant because I love this song and am mostly listening to it and not thinking about typing so much.

Okay. Never mind. It's over.

Such an amazing song. *sigh*

OKAY, so, here's what I plan to cover in this post: Carpe Noctem, God Day, and a quick run-through of my day and the sleepover last night.

Sleepover: It was fun!! We had a blast being crazy and super silly and watching like forty-five minutes of "Twilight". We took lots of crazy pictures. Here's one of them :)

There's nothing like girl friends gettin' together and doing crazy hair! :) (I'm the one in the middle, the tall one, lol!)

Quick run through of my day: Got up, got ready for church, ate two PopTarts, went to church, talked to people, listened to the amazing sermon, went to a little restaurant with D&D and their family, ate only a grilled cheese and drank Coke because their chicken fingers make me sick-feeling for some reason, took David home with us so he wouldn't have to go all the way home only to come right back for youth group (which is near our house), did stupid stuff on the computer, felt sick to my stomach (possibly because of that restaurant?), watched thirty minutes of "Twilight", went to youth group, had a great time talking about Miracles, came home, still feeling sick, blogged on Carpe Noctem, ate dinner, still felt sick, finished blogging on Carpe Noctem, re-did the layout of Carpe Noctem, went up and watched a news special about this news guy named Walter Clonkike (or something) who died, came down here, read blogs, started typing this, still feel sick.

We think it must be something in the well-water at the restaurant that makes me sick. Ugh, I feel kind of like crap.

Carpe Noctem: Uhm, just click on the link up there (or here: http://toseizethenight.blogspot.com/) and read it for yourself. Let me know what you think of the thingies on the side if you do, please.

God Day: Let's talk miracles!

We did in youth group, and it shocked me at how many miracles we've actually seen. Like, ME, personally.

1. We as a church laid hands on this guy who had kidney stone and prayed over him. We didn't pray for his surgery to go well, we prayed that God would just take the kidney stone away. We prayed that this guy would be a living miracle for the doctors to see. Well, he was. He went to the doctor the next day and the kidney stone was GONE.

2. A little girl at our church got kicked in the head by a horse. Her skull was pushed into her brain two inches. She is not paralyzed, has no brain-damage, and is completely healthy without so much as a visible scar.

3. A man at our church, a very old man, had really bad pneumonia. He was on his deathbed. The doctors all said so, we all thought so, but we kept praying. He's alive and perfectly well today.

4. Our youth leaders' daughter had severe heart problems when she was born. Time and time again, she has been a living miracle as she has had problems with that, and come out fine every time.

5. A boy we know was born with 20 different disabilities. He wasn't supposed to live to be more than a couple of DAYS old. He is currently sixteen years old.

6. A friend of our youth leader was doing something that needed a parachute in the dark. He thought he was much higher than he was, and pulled his parachute very late. Miraculously, he didn't die. He landed in a tree, and is pefectly fine today.

7. Our church is very small, and has a lot of bills to pay. Our offering isn't exactly rakin' in the cash. On a weekly basis, the accountant will wonder how in the world we're going to pay the bills. Something always happens.

8. Our youth leader was going on a family vacation a long time ago, and was broke. FLAT BROKE. They did not know how they were going to pay for the gas it took to get to their destination. They day before they left, a check came in the mail for $500. They had overpaid on something.

Stories like that are miracles that I have seen personally! Isn't it amazing? Our God is such a big God!

And it's not just the big things like kidney stones disappearing and money showing up; little things like being late to work so that you run into an old friend, waking up early to see a beautiful sunrise. Those aren't really "miracles", but God did it for you. God is always doing little things for us. You just have to stop and watch for them. At Bible School, we call those "God Sightings".

So look for God in the little details. Watch for miracles. Be prepared for God Sightings.

Hello? What are you waiting for? CARPE DIEM!

P.S. I found this blog a while ago, and this post just absolutely blows me away every time I read it. It's so poweful, so deep, so well-put, so moving, so true. "Reno" puts into words what I've felt before and never have been able to say. A thousand congratulations, Reno, for your amazing, poetic skill with words. Unfortunately, he hasn't enable comments on his blog, so I can't tell him how I feel about his writing, but I *can* share it with you, so here it is (WARNING: depressing, if incredibly eloquent): My Angel.

WARNING: Babyish, Complaining Post

I'm going to be annoying, babyish, complaining, and just an all around pill for a minute or two.

My allergies are bothering me. My throat is all burning and tingling and it feels like crap to swallow, so I'm not drinking enough so I'm dehydrated so I have a headache and I'm not sure how much medicine to take, but my mom is busy and when I went in to ask her how much to take, she goes, "Don't come in here and ask questions."

I feel pitiful. At the moment, I hate Classical Conversations. I hate practicums, I hate being tired and sick, and I hate how my mom works all the freakin' time. I miss the days when I was little when I was sick and she would be really sweet to me and tuck me in on the couch and bring me my medicine and tell me she was sorry I felt bad. I miss the days where I could feel sick without being labled some mean things.

I miss how my mom used to have all the time in the world for me and my sister and she was always there for us no matter what. I miss the days where she would offer to make me a jelly sandwhich. I miss the days when I would come downstairs and see her sitting in "her" chair reading a book. I miss the days when she wasn't stressed 24/7. I miss the days when she was my mom and ONLY my mom. Not the director of Classical, not my teacher, not someone else's teacher, not the trouble-shooter, not the go-to person for everyone in Classical.

I miss the old days and I want them back.

Sorry. I just feel pathetic right now. I'll get better in a few days.

Gotta go. Mom is yelling at something again.

*stares at screen...raises an eyebrow...and types this*

Sorry for that really depressing, complaining post last night. I just felt really bad. I'm a little better today.

Oh, but more bad news :( You know how I wanted to have my party on FEBRUARY 13th since that was a Friday the 13th? And then we didn't move so I couldn't? But then we moved and there was a MARCH Friday the 13th? So I was gonna do it then? (Sorry. Like, everything's a question...) Well, now I'm not having it this Friday the 13th either. Because some people couldn't/can't come. :( It sucks, right? *sigh*

School starts back up today. Hmmm. Ugh. Debate (gahhhh!), physical science (*sob*), literature (yay!), Latin (*MOAN*), philosophy (give me that philosophy book!!), math (help me), american government (so...?). AHHHH! I hate this. Summer can't come fast enough. Debate is killing me. And not only me, my partner as well!! It's not fair of me. I MUST DO BETTER RESEARCH. Math...ehh. I'll get it eventually. You know. Before I die anyway. Physical science is kind of like the nightmare that never ends. Latin is about the same as physci.

I know, I know. Shut up, stop complaining, close the blogging window, AND GET THE HECK TO WORK. Okay. I will.

Bye!

And maybe this is cheesy, and I don't know what your thoughts are about God or anything, but pray for me to do my work well today. I always go into it thinking I'm gonna do amazing today, but I always...don't. Or rarely do. I know I can do really well! I just don't. So, pray for me, y'all!

On Second Thought

My dog is sad.

I have a cold or allergies or something cause I feel like CRAP today.

I can't sleep here.

This house is too big.

My room is always freezing, and the main floor is always hot. (I'm used to it being the other way around, and I LIKED IT THAT WAY, THANKS.)

Our water tastes NASTY.

I love cable TV.

And...that was my day.

Oh, yeah, and class was awesome.

Warning: Don't read if you have a history of depression.

My house is the black hole of depression. THE BLACK HOLE. My whole family is upset and so freaking stressed. You don't know. You can't know. My mom is crying, my dad looks so defeated, my sister avoids us, I can't even breathe I'm so...something. We've put everything on the line, and things just...fell apart. We can't move in, our house is in chaos, we don't know when we'll be able to move. We can't live like this. My parents have to work, my sister and I have to do school. My stomach hurts, my head hurts, my throat hurts (probably because I'm holding back tears), my everything hurts. Everything is dark. Nothing has color right now. This is a bleak, depressing, probably-melodramatic post, but it's how I'm feeling. I can't even write Creepy. I have so much driver's ed homework to do it isn't even funny.

Life sucks. And then you die.

Carpe diem?


P.S. I just had an interesting idea: I should have a blog called Carpe Noctem...hmm...

I'm sick but I loved "The Glass Menagerie" :)

I'm sick. Stuffy nose, runny nose, lots of sneezing, I'm always cold, always tired...yeah. It sucks :( But, life goes on. :)

I'm hoping to get in a few thousand words of "Creepy" done today...Don't know how much luck I'll have when I don't feel that great. Paige will probably come down with a terrible fever or something. Hmm...not actually a bad idea. :D Anyway, I sent my story to Ellie yesterday and she read it and said she loved it. Maybe it's not as bad as I was afraid of. Ellie is extremely honest, so I know if she liked it all right, it can't be THAT bad :) We did discover some irrigularities and things that aren't quite plausible. I'll need to go back and rework those, but over all, I don't feel as bad about what I've done.

In school, we just read the book "The Glass Menagerie." I loved it! It has lots of good symbolism, and the story is also very funny and easy (for me at least) to relate to. It's a memory play. In other words, it is the way the narrator, Tom, remembers and perceives various events. The book, which is actually a play, centers around the small Wingfield family: the mother, Amanda, and young adult children Laura and Tom. They all have very different personalities, which makes for an interesting family life. Amanda is determined to make sure that Laura, who is shy to a debilitating degree, has a good future. Amanda uses Tom’s income to insure that, which makes Tom justifiably bitter. He feels obligated to take care of his family, but really wants to leave his small life and seek out adventure, or write poetry. He only sticks around because he feels his duty to his family and he doesn't want to be like his father, who ran out on the family.

The play is pretty short and it was easy to read. I love the symbolism of the glass menagerie, which is Laura's collection of little glass animal figurines. She tends to them all day, keeping them clean and arranged the way she likes them. This symbolizes the fragile little world she likes to live in instead of facing reality. There is a lot more symbolism in the glass menagerie than what I just said, but I don't want to spoil everything. The play has a very good, although highly unexpected ending. (If you find it to read it, DON'T READ THE BACK OF IT FIRST. It gives away everything. I did not read the back, and enjoyed the book. When I read the back after I was finished, I was VERY glad I hadn't read it beforehand.)

Yeah, well, that's pretty much all I can think of for now. School went well today. It was pretty fun. A guy in my class sprained his ankle after school playing basketball in the parking lot, so that's too bad :( But other than that, nothing particularly interesting happened.

Hope I can get some "Creepy" written!! Come on, creativity! I need ya! :) TTYL!